Importance

Am i important? I never feel like it. My parents dont care about me unless im doing something that they dont approve of. I sit in my room all day and just sulk. I have no purpose in life. The only guy that makes me happy I cant be with. My parents dont like him and because my mom used to work at my school i have people all over the place watching me to make sure I dont date him again. He makes me happy. He makes me feel like I have a purpose in my life. Without him my life doesnt matter. Ive tried talking to my parents about it but they wont listen. I talked to my Guidence counselor about it today and she said that maybe a list of compromises could have it where both of us can be happy. I can be with the guy i love and my parents will know that i am not doing anything behind their backs. All i want is to be with him.


I dont feel like i matter in this family at all. I could run away and no one would care. Ive thought about running away multiple times and he is the only reason i stay. i know that if i run away he will stop eating and stop sleeping and just plain stop caring about life. He will start cutting himself again and i dont want that to happen. He makes me so happy and i just want to be with him.