Ex

Been talking to the ex. been an interesting experience. i still like him. and i think he still likes me but........ idk. sometimes i think he does. other times i can tell he doesnt..... its confusing. guys are confusing.

Single and confused

  My life is very confusing. This summer me and my boyfriend...... well I guess now ex boyfriend were dating for most of the summer. He broke up with me when I was on the way back from my mission trip. Then we school started back up we got back together and then on Sunday we broke up again. And then something else happened. I'm not going to specify what because I'd rather not be murdered for letting it happen. But what happened confused the hell out of me.

  Then we were talking everything out at lunch with a lot of room in between us because I didn't want anyone to think we were dating and his friends got really pissed off and we were just talking.They grabbed him and moved him away from me then started yelling at him for talking to me even though it was just because we didn't want the fact that we have the same friends to be awkward.

  So now he isn't talking to me. I feel like the year we were together was just a lie. He says he still loves me. I just wish he would show that.

Single Pringle

Got back from my mission trip to New York. about a week ago. We served a church called Living Water Church and helped paint a building, helped clean up a summer camp, helped fix steps at the school we were staying at and put on a Kids Night Out (VBS).



When i was on the way back i got a message saying that my boyfriend had to end things between me and him. But when I asked if it meant completely he said he just needed a break and we'd still be friends and talk and stuff....... So the next day my parents ask me about it because they dont like him at all and they know i have been talking to him. We talked it out and they said since the decision was for us to just be friends then we could. But when i tried contacting the guy about it he wouldnt answer me and then i heard from this girl.......... a girl he knows im really jealous of because she's so pretty. She said that the guy was done with me completely. didnt want anything to do with me. that he never cared about me ever.


Found out last night he asked out one of my friends. isnt it amazing how fast someone you thought loved you can just move on with their life?

This week

Been a okay week. I started some meds that made me sick to my stomach so in the mornings i have been sick but other than that its been good. Went swimming yesterday and had alot of fun. Going to Alabama Softball camp next week then to Kissimmee for a softball tournament so I dont get to see Courtney and babysit.

I've been doing really good with French 2 online. I have a 96% in the class!!!!!!!

First Week of Summer

This has been the first week of summer. This week has been fun and tiring for me. We have been to a movie and bowling and to the park a couple times. We've also been swimming. She is actually swimming right now as im writing this. I have also started my online class. Its going pretty good. i have an 87% in the class right now which is really good. I am horrible at French so an 87% is really good. While i work on school she reads. We have a good system.

I still think about him. All the time. I love him so much. He is my world. I cant wait for summer to end so i can see him again.

Almost Done

School is almost out and while I'm ready to be out of school for the summer I also don't want to. School is the only way I am able to see him. Its been extremely difficult seeing him at school because I am stalked 24/7.

Its been extremely difficult these past few days too. Tomorrow is the last day I can see him. I'm going to be a wreck. I don't know how I am going to live. I need him and I am being torn away from him. I will be thinking about him all summer. School will be a welcomed thing when we go back.

Just another day

An okay day. Ready to not have to think about everything. He's still on my mind every day. I doubt he thinks about me that much anymore though. I'm just a girl in his past. I'm okay with it. As long as he is happy I will be okay with it. I'll never be 100% happy with it but ill be okay with it because he is happy with whoever the girl is.


I wish i had a way to know that he read these. But I don't........


Babe. If your reading this I love you